Gosh, he's just super cute, I swear! ;D I totally wish I knew him, right from the start;B That would be so cool la!

Do you ever get that feeling... where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile either? But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If I could wish for anything in the world it would be, to be alone. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait. 

Sometimes, you just don't understand. Did it surprise you that I am not who you thought I was? Did it surprise you to find that I don't exactly stand for what you thought I stood for all along? Did it surprise you to find that I'm not exactly how I played myself out to be? That the person you thought I was is actually nothing to what I am. Did it? "Sigh"